my life was swallowed by fears and regrets
of unspoken words and unpaid debts
when others lept I had to wait
I stood at the threshold and paused at the gate
My friends and family forced my hand
they took my bottle and made their demands
I stood on the edge and refused to see
the terrible wages of my sins and eternity
My women have left and my children are grown
and yet I wander this earth in search of a home
then suddenly one day, as I lost all control
I asked for help for my tired body and my soul
In the mirror that I refused to stand before
was the image of a man I could not ignore.
So I gathered my courage and pulled him up by his belt
and forced him to play the cards that he had himself dealt.
from the edge I saw the possible pathes I could have taken
and in my resolve I made a choice and I was unshaken
two years now, I have had time to live and love and think.
and I am grateful for the fact that someone else took my drink
for the friend I saw in the mirror and in the broken glass
was myself and no other, I had ignored in the past.